La'chaim!

"IF social life matters that much"

2011-04-07T22:40:00.002+08:00

Been a while since I last put my feet down in the blogosphere. Having a good spirit in the moment, I feel like writing something good for everyone to read (I positively hope it's good). It kind of bugs me and constantly makes me wonder why. The kind of concern that asks whether things that are 'considered bad' are actually good, vice versa, or worth preserving even.

This is something that I have been observing throughout my work, life and social interaction. Or maybe happen to think about when I am trying to be inspirational. Sounds good so far? Maybe not.

Quite recently I was watching this show 'Singapore Talking' and the show normally has a weekly hot topics for the host to discuss while viewers can also contribute through SMS or live Q&A session. Since the show revolves around people in Singapore, I would recommend you to think of it in an Asian context to better understand the sensitivity of the matter. If you're Asian, that should be easy. If you're not, nothing to sweat over. This is not about Race, but essentially related to it.

Long come to short, one of the appealing topics I found was about "service standards in Singapore" and what people think of it. Much variety of public opinion concentrates on the saying that 'the service is terrible' and 'nothing much you can do about it'. I am just giving you the rough idea, not the exact truth or whatever wrong thinking you might get.

My own say of this topic: you might be able to get 'limited' good service in SG but most of the time what you get is rudeness and ignorance (I am sure many of you have experienced this in person). A lot of things are mostly about efficiency and money turnaround. I know business is business, but I believe the ability to understand an insight of the consumer market better is the key to successful business.

This situation is also largely related to how people (communities) behave and project their attitude towards the others. Obviously, we all know well that we have a majority of Chinese in Singapore. Again, I do not mean to be racist about it because I am also of Chinese descent. Expressing my opinion about the Chinese communities, we are not that kind of friendly people in the history book. As far as I'm concerned, we don't have a good record of hospitality, despite the widespread fame that we're one of the best moneymaking assholes you can think of. (You can bet your own ass on it)

If I were to metaphorically say that being not friendly is the color of our attitude, then it would not be a pretty color to behold. I keep wondering what causes this phenomenon and what we can do about it really. Seriously what do you think? I personally think that the habit needs to come from your own selves. If we don't start treating others better, then I guess you can't expect others to treat you good as well. It all comes down to equal treatment. The silver lining: when you have treated someone else well, that person will pass on the good treatment to other people, and other people will start to treat everyone else in the community well too.

Like the domino theory, it is a vicious, powerful cycle. I am not trying to make it sound evil but I believe in the saying 'what goes around comes back around' or 'you reap what you sow' because it all adds up eventually. When you start something good in a cycle, it will keep coming back.

And last but not least, what follows from my own saying "if you bite, I bite too"

Think, think, and think again

2010-11-22T23:35:00.000+08:00

"If you think of Society and of Capitalistic ideology, how deep should we consider we are submerged?"

Think about the world that we currently live in. Think about how regular it is. Think about how we make sense. Everything, yes, think about everything.

I am not sure whether I have been brainwashed into this school of thought but it has not left my mind. Many writers out there have been writing about how this society works while they are also constantly evaluating what they have written as the era evolves. Anyhow, the show carries on. Capitalism, according to what has become my understanding, can be understood in terms of class system. In a pyramid construction divided by 3 levels, we have the elite, the burgeois, and the working class.

However, we shall not digress and talk tediously that the story gets overly poetic. I am interested to emphasize on the aspect of regularities. In other words, how 'routine' things seem and how 'changed' they are. I do not claim that we all live the same kind of life, but I believe we all can agree when I say at a certain point we live in the same way as others. We wake up looking at the same sun, get dressed in our usual clothing, and work at a place that we always go to. It is normal and so-called 'regular'.

I exclude 'the elite' and consider them as what we look up to. This is because in reality the elite is indeed the very few of people standing at the highest point. They are the powerful. They are the tycoons, moguls, and the god-like rulers of society.

Let's think of something that many of us are familiar with. The 'in' things. The piece of society. An item that is called "Smartphone". Not so long ago, creativity in technology created a smart button that controls many of the features a phone may have. Fast forward a period of time, we now have the 'smartphone'. A kind of intelligent phone that can do so many things within only one device. Media convergence has happened so swiftly before our very eyes. On the other hand, lives are deeply affected with the way things are done, carried out, and understood.

I might say that is is not a 'bad' thing. I say it is 'life in pocket size'. The kind of life that we used to know in the earlier era is still here but another kind of life has somehow 'kicked in', made its place and consequently taken over the wheel.

I am sure we agree that it is also the era of non-stop instant messaging. Letter and emails are kind of obsolete. Our medium of communication has diversified and been dominantly struck with data streaming and instantaneous reply. You hit one button and within seconds you are typing back with your 'qwerty' keyboard and moving on with your day. Social interaction is still intact with people meeting up face to face, but most of their lives are run with their heads down, eyes locked at the mini monitors on our fingers.

Technology has somehow become an inseparable essence of our modern life. Media conglomerates have created a new pool of social interaction and we are all swimming in it. They are definitely making money and floating in the air (I do not separate the state and the private sector, they are all in it to win it). Business with aim for profit has obviously turned the world around, we all know that. What I sometimes keep on thinking about is how a business has transformed all of our lives that we have been swimming too long in the pool that we do not realize that we can't not swim. We have to stay in the pool in order to live. It is funny if you think you have to keep on swimming to stay alive.

How deep have we fallen into the hole? Is this the story of Alice in Wonderland? Can we come back into our old world and stay the same? You may think it is feasible, but we no longer want to go back. Even Alice has never been the same since she came back from Wonderland.

Now let me ask you to think back about how regular our lives really are. Then answer the question: how deep should we consider we are submerged?

We are in too deep that we have made the hole our home. Now that's just fucked up.

It's a DOG eat DOG world

2010-11-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

The image above says no more. It's a 'dog-eat-dog' world.

Further explained in simple, imaginable words: All dogs are eating one another. A dog that has eaten many other dogs gets bigger. Weak dogs get eaten. Some dogs work together to get rid of other dogs, to be completely betrayed by their own members later on. Good dogs are rare and diminish.

Happy Birthday my BVVO!

2010-10-20T00:53:00.000+08:00

Nothing I want more than to be with you on your special day

Heaps of Hugs and Kisses,

Your Boyfriend ;)

Oh people! Come on!

2010-09-05T01:22:00.006+08:00

According to my understanding and the standard practice that people should and best do anywhere and most of the time, at the very least, an ethical way of treating customers when they walk in to your stores starts from you treating them nicely while you try to see what you can do to help them and in the end probably get them to buy your products.

However, this is not the case and often the kind of impression that I tend to get from places in Singapore - so far. I am not saying this out of one experience because I have experienced it a couple of times. I am also not labelling Singapore as the only place because I believe that this comes from a culture that has become a bad habit for a lot of people (either older or newer generations) or probably the lack for better socialization skills to interact with other people which in this case, customers.

WHAT YOU WANT?!

It's not important to discuss where. I actually wonder what kind of traditional customs or social imprudence or what I simply call "what a way to chase away customers" that a lot of people in retailing practice because they might have not realized that customers do not feel attended to when all you do is rush them and not care what they think about your product while you might even act so rude in front of them. Not trying out to drop the bomb on a particular ethnic, but as a part of the extremely big Chinese community around the world, I often got this impression from a lot of Chinese. Most of the time. (FYI, the picture above is not a chinese and it is intended for illustration purpose only!)

I believe this is one of many issues out there that has taken place many times, that leads customers to leave your stores and go to another store to try to get a better service they can get if they wish so. This may not be a super sell idea to boost sales but it is one personal advice that I would recommend to any retailers or anyone trying to sell their stuffs. If you can be nice, add it with a smile even, try to listen and see what they are looking for as well as recommend something, your potential customers might feel that you are really trying to help them and things might turn out a little better yeah, altho what you really want is their moneyyy! Well business is business, nothing much I can say about that.

Sometimes all you gotta do is be nice and you might get something good! Hell yeah you bet!

Not again asshole

2010-08-31T02:04:00.000+08:00

I can't seem to fuckin fall asleep. Long live dark circles! I am on my way to become a full breed panda.

I will not lose my faith

2010-08-09T17:35:00.005+08:00

Things come unexpected, you are usually ambushed. Yes, I could not see it coming that soon but there's nothing much I can do at this point besides moving on. A job is a job. When you are going to lose one, you gotta find another. Looks like I'm going back to the unemployment lane and this is not the end of the world!

Time to start hunting and nailing something better out there!

One Story

2010-07-28T22:44:00.003+08:00

When things starts to get annoying, your face tends to smile less. It has been happening for quite a while and it got worse this morning. I seriously don't like people who are trying to look like a smartass or in simple english, fuckface.

I don't know if you are genuinely not nice because that was what i got from my first impression. You obviously could bring it up a little more nicely. Not like when you tried to look like a fucking asshole in front of the big boss! You did not even look like you cared about any shit.

I actually have nothing against you and this post is just a sharing. But some things that happened earlier would have left a better impression to me if you hadn't been acting so godlike.

Bad turns to worse, you act and judge like you know how to build a mountain, feel like your dick is the center of the earth, and I am just a very stupid young man. Do not try to measure things with age because you know shit. I only pity you. Absolute cockiness leads to absolute oblivion. It does not mean that because you are 'older' or 'considered wiser' that you are always right, older man!

Don't make me pretend to laugh.

More than just a thank you

2010-06-20T02:05:00.004+08:00

I may get bored when

Everyone gives me the same old piece of cake to eat

But I smile and dance when

You give me your own piece of happiness to feel

"specially dedicated to someone I care about big time"

What made my special day, special

2010-05-24T00:24:00.006+08:00

Just when I'm finally allowed to unwrap the present from her =)

Love it babe, thanks =)

You don't have to worry about getting me the perfect present

Cos when I'm happy with you, nothing else matters

Now that's perfect

I may be considered young and naive, people,

but that's what most of us are missing the most

Being young and naive, and most importantly, happiest

I am yours, vice versa, and we have each other

2010-05-17T23:24:00.004+08:00

Not trying to be overly superlative

but i'm madly happy with you!

You are the author of your life

2010-04-27T23:08:00.004+08:00

I may not be the oldest of age to look up to or someone well known that many follow or the biggest trend setter of all things, I follow what I think is right, I decide what is best for myself, and I obviously do not look back to reminisce the sad and bad, I only look forward to where there is new hope and lesson to learn from.

If you are the blank ink that colors the white paper and people are other colors from which you decide what to pick and mix, you decide how colorful you want your life to be.

You are the author of your life and you decide.

Ecstasy

2010-02-15T11:14:00.003+08:00

You're stuck on me and I can't get enough

It's like a non-stop increase of an interest rate

Abso-fucking-lutely

2009-12-27T03:57:00.002+08:00

When things happen, you don't have to feel guilty about it

When feels happen, there's nothing you can do about it

You just gotta see where it's taking you

If you like where you're going to, well carry on

some people might frown upon it, no worries

sometimes you don't have to give a fuck to every single thing in life

it's too much

cheers

Unbelievable

2009-12-25T01:54:00.002+08:00

Stop making a fool of yourself and start living for real for FUCK's sake! You keep wanting shits and you never listen, so i'm the one who's done listening. FUCK OFF

Never Say Never

2009-12-23T03:21:00.004+08:00

Stay with me

Won't you wait for me

Care for me

And never say never

Love,

You're in my flesh and bone

Where ever you go i'm home

I'll follow you

You're in my head

In my heart

In my soul

The air i breathe

You're in my head

In my heart

In my soul

The air i breathe

Yes you're my favorite need

I'll follow you

When everything seems lost

I'm stuck and falling down

You will guide me home

So promise me

You'll stay with me

Won't you wait for me

Care for me

And never say never

No never say never again

No never say never again

Appealing Inconvenience

2009-12-05T01:02:00.002+08:00

It's funny how life has turnarounds
And there's pretty much nothing i can do about it
Or so I think

It's endless that I wish life would just be simple
When everything shows the other way around
Or it is actually simple

So who's making it complicated then?
Me?
Or blame human social interaction?
Or worst, blame civilization?

Tom

Please

2009-11-26T02:02:00.002+08:00

It is easy to complain when all you can do is waiting
But I'm the one who's doing the work and I don't complain
so think twice before you start shooting bullets

BOTTOMS, BUTTOCKS, REARS

2009-11-16T13:40:00.001+08:00

SINGAPOREAN OR PR ONLY MY ASS!

Casual or Strings Attached?

2009-11-15T02:15:00.003+08:00

Lets make up a topic. I wana see your say in this

In terms of relationship, and by this i mean a guy being close to a girl or vice versa, in more than friendly manner.

When your relationship comes to a certain point which i think you know where, do you prefer to have it casual? To consider it as something fun to experience, somehow gray, and unlabeled so to say.

OR do you prefer to have it named? (boyfriend, girlfriend, soulmate, love, you name it).

Which do you prefer??? If you choose either one, tell me why =)

Welcome to Singapore my friend

2009-11-08T23:21:00.005+08:00

I notice people walk so swiftly, and some are even running
And somehow, they made me wanna walk faster
It's as if they'd run me over if i walked slowly (slight exaggeration)
But its real, the feel, the atmosphere, the aura
Couple of my friends would refer this kind of thing to kiasunism that Singaporeans are famous of
The need of competence, the need to be numero uno, well whatever

I have been on some thoughts lately,

People can be selfish in so many ways, whether you like or not
It's the fact out there, the truth
You just can't expect everyone to be nice to you, even when you're trying to be nice to everyone
So, Fuck them, and get on with it!

Tom

Amen

2009-10-15T01:04:00.004+08:00

Work was not fun today. Just plain boring. But it felt good to be back somehow, at least.

My talking mind has been rambling on and on these last few days, or weeks. Seeking a way out for everything. My optimistic thought told me to just bite everything all the way, although it doesnt seem very careful in a way, or stray so to say.

Hope its a better day tomorrow
Hope theres something for me soon enuf
Amen

Be yourself, not someone

2009-10-05T23:26:00.002+08:00

What matters is when youre truthfully happy and theres nothing holding you back.
Always be true to yourself, follow what your heart says, and you will enjoy whatever it is.
Life is a blessing, therefore, appreciate everything.

Let it be known

2009-09-26T00:57:00.001+08:00

If you miss someone, tell him/her that you miss them =)

Boredom Kills

2009-09-24T23:24:00.001+08:00

Just like the title says, boredom kills, the element of fun is non-existent, i wanna get out of here

Just asking

2009-09-18T00:47:00.000+08:00

who's gona miss me? pls tell so ill remember =)

FUCK

2009-09-13T18:16:00.001+08:00

FUCK, i duno what to say or do. Get me outta here

Make it happen

2009-09-12T15:16:00.002+08:00

So the things that happened happened, the things that are gona happen will happen
I can no longer expect certainty, even though i can still calculate
Since life is so much better when you be spontaneous, letting it go as it flows

I wanna be optimist and positive, so i'm putting that idea on my head
And therefore I believe that my life will be so exciting, to be filled with overflow of joy
And in that nuance I will keep growing and tread my way through with a big smile

La'chaim

updates on my days

2009-09-06T22:56:00.004+08:00

whats done is done, anyways, a couple of points i would like to shout out:

First and foremost, to a large number of taxi drivers out there in Malaysia who are like COCKS, deciding UNREASONABLE PRICE, and acting as if YALL know everything, FUCK YOU ALL and GO FUCK YOURSELVES MORONS!

Secondly, I have absoFUCKINGlutely graduated! Im just so damn happy, no further than that

Then, i feel so fucking tired these last few days, probably because of all the excitements for my convocation, and of course because i havent had some good night sleep

thats all for now i guess

should i just give a smile to it?

2009-09-04T03:14:00.002+08:00

i'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
it's hard to say that i'd rather stay awake when im asleep
coz everything is never as it seems...

Fresh start

2009-09-02T00:57:00.003+08:00

There have been this and that, these and those for the last couple of months. I can't bother to spit out everything. All i wana do now is start fresh and keep moving forward coz the world never waits. And my adventure never stops. It's 87 more hours to go until i hold my scroll.

So i had a little trip in penang for the last 4 days, i can say not bad. It's nice to get out of the big city every once in a while. I always enjoy the laughter with everyone. It always feels good to have someones to hang out and joke around with. A hell lot better than being lonely most of the time, Fuck.

la'chaim,
Tom

a random fantasy

2009-05-21T23:01:00.003+08:00

i imagine walking on the shore, holding your hand,
i pull you softly to my arms, and hold you passionately
while the clear blue sky and the clear blue sea only can see enviously

as you're in my arms, theres no one else around
just you and me, with a perfect weather
our eyes are set on each other deeply

and our lips meet

the Sleepless Panda

Happiness

2009-04-20T02:23:00.002+08:00

"Happiness for me is when you are able to be together with someone your heart wants, just two souls, hold on to that someone as dearly as you can, and hope that time will freeze in that very moment forever"

Long time no post,
SleeplessPanda~

A Crumbling Heart

2009-03-11T11:44:00.004+08:00

What i most appreciate of all things:

Care not because you have to but because you really do
Feel not because you need to but because you want to
Cherish not because you're supposed to but because you treasure it

You are who you are in whatever you do.

Am i not the survival of the fittest?

2009-03-01T00:42:00.004+08:00

life still doesnt look so good right now. It is not. And I leave my hopes only in her and GOD as well.

20-02-09

2009-02-20T18:19:00.002+08:00

For whatevers coming onto me, i wanna face it. As strong as i can be.

Life

2009-02-16T13:47:00.001+08:00

I reli hope everything will be okay. I reli do.

Me

2009-02-15T16:09:00.002+08:00

Been on and off like a switch. Still the same person, I think. Still wonders about life at times. Feeling not so bright at the moment. Plus the stupid sore throat. It's stupid.

2009 it is

2009-02-03T00:34:00.002+08:00

Hey, i have ignored this blog for some time already. God knows whats happened to me. I have counted the days since i unintentionally came back to palembang, and i have missed my second home a lot.

Anyway, i'm really enjoying the remaining days until i fly back to Sunway this coming thursday (5th). Especially enjoying driving! God i miss driving my parents' car lol. Either alone or accompanied, i really enjoy it.

It is also good to meet some high school peeps and hang. Celebrating CNY and reunion, not bad, but not everyone is around this time. Sad.

And damn for time flies so effin fast, im in my last semester and when i looked at my old photo albums at home today, i really can't believe it. Things have changed a lot now. Everything is, as everyone else keeps on moving forward.

I hope i can survive today's world,
SleeplessPanda

Merry Christmas to me, you, and Jesus

2008-12-25T02:03:00.003+08:00

Here we are, we are at this point of year, christmas we call it, and everyone seems to be celebrating it. They all look happy, cheerful, laughing. All is enjoying their christmas. As joyful as it may seem, some people are getting the wrong idea about christmas. Christmas, they do remember christmas, everyone does, who doesn't? it's christmas dude let's go have some fun with the peeps, etc. Some people do remember we have christmas but they tend to forget and take for granted the most important thing, it's HIS day not ours. However, i do know for certain that some people out there still remember HIM and realize that christmas is HIS day. I'm not trying to look like a smart ass here but u get my point. For you God-believers, anywhere u are, don't ever forget Jesus coz He never forgets you. Let's all celebrate this christmas for him not for ourselves! I won't forget HIM ever. He will always be in my heart.

So christmas. So many things took place until we reach this very day. So many things happened. I can't point out every single thing with all the details but i do recall some very memorable, precious, important moments of my life. And if they last long or even forever, means they are definitely precious to me. So far, i have been in ups and downs to reach today. Some are pretty easy, some are moderate, and some are pretty hard. Like typical game's level, i get through every one of them and now i'm still going through the next one. There will always be the next one. Challenge after challenge. I will try to do my best to beat it. Wish me luck for everything =D

As of now, i'm pretty happy with my current situation. What i'm doing where i've been and whom i've been seeing. All that gives me smiles, laughters, fun, and everything i would need to survive. And surviving, i will do my best to keep my feet on the right ground, on the right track. Of course, all the big spirit i got comes from a special someone i can see next to me when i'm hanging out some place some time. I need her, to keep me strong. I hope everything is going the right way and i'm just wishing for the best for everything, everything at the present and everything on the way.

Enjoy ur christmas people,
SleeplessPanda~

how is life so far

2008-12-17T21:39:00.002+08:00

Hey. Today's work is damn boring. Damn boring is like boring + boring + boring. Z. Okay, i've got to tell you that the notebook in the staff room is damn slow which makes it even more boring than damn boring. Hell yeah. I came to work just on time today. Since the last couple of days, my travel to work starts from the '66' bus that passes Sun-U Residence, metro bus (either 10 or 13) that stops near Asia Jaya LRT station, then I catch the LRT train from Asia Jaya to Dang Wangi, and then I walk to menara IMC which is very near to Bukit Nanas Monorail station. So, I reached menara IMC around 11:33 if i'm not mistaken. Then I still had the time to eat taoge + wedges + omelette + rice until 11:46. Went up, Had my orange tie tightened, and office hours started.

The day went pretty slow. My supposed 6 pm appointment is hopeless. Me and Si Toh called our client to confirm our meeting and the fella said "subject to weather, if it rains, I won't come", then he hung up z. It did not rain but he never showed up anyway. I guess I need more time to get the chance to meet my first time client. We'll see. So when today's work ended and the time showed 8:20, i was already on my way to the LRT station heading to KL Sentral. I was hoping to get the U63 Rapid KL bus simply because it is faster compared to the U76 which reaches sunway a lot slower. My hope came true, I got the U63 bus just on time, but it made me leave my bread @ 7/11. I was gona buy the raisin bread and there was a queue, then I saw a rapid KL bus outside the shop leaving soon enuf. It was the U63. Thank God I managed to get in in time. But I did not get the raisin bread dammit. T__T. I left my queue line, put back the bread and rushed for the bus. My raisin bread wor. z.

And now I'm home with a hungry stomach. I can't believe I haven't had dinner yet while I let myself make this post. Sohai.

See you when I see you,
SleeplessPanda~

Everything thats to come

2008-12-08T12:20:00.002+08:00

"I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster"

What is this? Tell Me

2008-12-02T04:03:00.004+08:00

So here it goes, the complicated and unchanging drama of life. One that can't be avoided cause it always happens to one. It is inevitable. I've come across that word quite frequently during my communication studies. I am one among ten, or one tenth among a thousand, or well whatever. I feel pain, sad, sorrow, and then, i'm okay again, after a few hours, it came back, i feel sad, stupid, and lost, or so it goes. Screw it. Get the fuck on with it.

Just a lunatic with a laptop and not-too-shabby internet and time who makes some sort of bullshit when his eyes are just not gona rest so easily. Dumbass. Yeah. I never thought writing illogical writing could get pretty fun. And now i know it. It is fun, somehow. Words after words then you go tickle your brain somemore then you go again. What the Fuck. But what do you think? Let me know.

This is something I never did before which is done by me right now. A continuous staring at the monitor with tired, baggy eyes and a moving, typing fingers initiated by the brain of a one that result into a piece of work that I don't have a name for. This is sick but fun, guys. Maybe something got into me. Maybe. I need medicine. Or not. Sleeping pills? Am i that desperate to sleep? "Man, you really have nothing to do huh". Is that what you're gona say to me? Whatever. Fuck.

~~~1 more semester~~~ and that line keeps flying inside my head. Dammit. Sohai la. Time flies like a motherfucker these days. It doesn't wait and it always leaves you behind when you get slow or spaced out. So, a supposed two and a half year of study should prepare me with something, shouldn't it? Or not? Or my skull is just filled with blood and no brain at all? Where is my advertising future? All that with the last couple of months of mental torture that starts in the end of February. Crap.

Every once in a while I tend to get this dream of having a time machine. A machine that plays with time. Theoretically and supposedly, when you play with time there will be butterfly effects that change everything. Then everything is gona get fucked cause you fuck up the order. Well, that is if you play with it and do something in some time and yeap, basically fuck it up. But, this is just a dream. Don't worry so much. Anyway, time machine must be banned and exterminated. If not, with so many sickfaced crazy retarded brainless selfish people running around the earth, having a time machine will lead to the end of the world. It will be like heroes series maybe. Teleport here and there. Kacau and end up dead. Just a thought. Fuck it.

It's almost five. The light's gona come in in a few hours and eyes are gona open. 88.

Sleeplessfucka~

Lie

2008-11-27T03:09:00.007+08:00

I like to claim myself wanting to be honest whereas i actually haven't. I haven't been honest to you, and even to myself. There have been days, of so many miss and misses, of you that pass thru the days that i keep to myself. Some of them slipped away from my mouth and became honesty. Nonetheless, the rest is left out in indescribable periods of time when i frequently need to restrain myself from going insane over you.

constantly sick,

SleeplessPanda~

lets kill someone, it may be fun

2008-11-23T04:10:00.004+08:00

It is now one of the weeks of the long long holiday and freedom is right before my eyes but responsibility is haunting me, day after day, thought after thought. Shit. I know i can slack around, not forever tho, since my last sem is waiting in Feb and there it is, the world of work is waiting for me or not, if i choose to be unemployed and die on the street. One world after another. They keep coming.

Lets focus on the present, i have November-December-January-February in my hand and i can do whatever i want with them. And and and, i know that i should not waste the time with eating eating and sleeping sleeping until i become obese and die being too fat. lol. Stupid and err. So, my holy plan this long holiday is primarily getting an internship in some company but it's not working out right now. I'm still looking and thinking. F, I need a job! and things are leading me to getting a part-time in the restos which is not the priority.

cabut dulu,
SleeplessPanda~

Juz call it life

2008-11-15T19:14:00.004+08:00

One of many Qs i keep asking myself. If i like someone and feel for her, do i need a reason to meet her and be with her? Sometimes? or does life need to be 'masqueraded'? where ppl mask reasons on their faces and hide something behind? so then the party continues. Funny, am just silly thinking this. Am i overly dramatic? A stupid bumming fucker writing down nonsense? One more thing, how do you cope with ms independent? Assuming someone hu may want you but dont need you. And so i keep asking. Is she ms independent? whose glow catches my attention and steals my heart away. Im figuring this thought out. Im thinking of her and definitely want to be with her. Does she want me?

If it kills me

2008-11-11T22:27:00.004+08:00

Hello, tell me you know
Yeah, you figured me out
Something gave it away
It would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that i know that you know now

And baby that's a case of wishful thinking
You know nothing
Well you and I
Why, we go carrying on for hours on end
We get along much better
Than you and your boyfriend (x)

Well all i really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But i still cant say after all we've been thru
And all i really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And i will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
...
(Mraz, 2008)

i love his songs big time,
SleeplessPanda~

It's a big phiuhh

2008-11-04T22:32:00.003+08:00

NO MORE EXAMMSSS!!!!! HELL YEAHHHH!!!! am so happy right now that i duno what to say lolz, for the rest of you whos gona be having your remaining exams in a couple of days i hope you do well. Last but not least, my greatest gratitude to my only JESUS :)

You hold me when i'm afraid and shaking
You give me strength when i'm weak
You keep me going
And you're the one i count on to

bye semester 5,
SleeplessPanda~

..In you..

2008-10-31T00:33:00.004+08:00

Hi complicated world,

Am not well. Am at ya, stranded. Am gray, like a half-powered bulb.
Believe me its not a vantage point here, am trying to figure out life as it is.
Living the life is not necessarily easy, i know. Except, am not unbreakable.
Its the same like glassware, i have a fragility limit.

And if there's a speed limit, forgive me for running fast.
But am just holdin on before it fades away.
If it's called a weakness, forgive me for i can't live with eternality.
Maybe am just pathetic, embracing my own humanity.

Ive fallen, i realize that.
if you think am mistaken, explain why are you inside my head.
People may say dreams are foolish, i reject that.
For my dreams are the ones keeping me alive.

The earth is revolving fast, minute by minute.
And it's fast enough that I can't always keep up in the end.
If you're a blackhole, that am drawn into.
Then i wish to remain lost, in you.

Until i disperse to dust,

SleeplessPanda.

LAGI SATU!

2008-10-30T00:43:00.005+08:00

YOSHH, 1 paper was done today!!! some weight has been lifted from my head and now, just 1 more left, then thats it for the sem!! wish me some luck people!

the biggest thanks to my JESUS, you're always around to give me strength =D
I always know, that YOU never let me down. I Love YOU for ever.

Struggling,
SleeplessPanda~

Don't Ask Me

2008-10-26T14:28:00.003+08:00

Quit acting, so friendly
Don't nod, don't laugh all nicely
Don't think you'll up-end me
Don't sigh, don't sip your iced-tea
And don't say it's been a while
And don't flash that stupid smile

Don't ask me, don't ask me, don't ask me
Ask me, ask me, how I've been

Don't think I've forgotten
You never liked that necklace
So cordial, so rotten
Kiss, kiss, let's meet for breakfast
Don't show up so on time
And don't act like you're so kind

Don't ask me, don't ask me, don't ask me
Ask me, ask me, how I've been

Don't ask me, don't ask me out

Don't sit there and play just
So frank, so straight, so candid
So thoughtful, so gracious
So sound, so even-handed
Don't be so damn benign
And don't waste my fucking time

Don't ask me, don't ask me, don't ask me
Ask me, ask me, how I've been

Don't ask, don't ask, don't ask, don't ask
Don't, don't, don't

Don't ask me, don't ask me, don't ask me, don't ask me
Ask me, ask me, how I've been
(OK Go-Don't Ask Me)

Don't ask me,
Don't ask me.
Ask me how I've been,
SleeplessPanda~

Euphoria

2008-10-25T01:03:00.007+08:00

These lips of mine are shut tight,
with my consciousness flying deep, to an endless mind tunnel
looking for a meaning, out of a baseless curiosity.

I dive into the sea of mystery,
with nothing to hold on to, to keep me sober
and i deliberately let my mind, wander beautifully.

I let myself be a lost butterfly,
with flapping colorful wings, and the path of a galaxy
of no clear destination, of nothing to lose.

You think a moment of madness, I say a moment of happiness.
If someone tries to catch me, it will go in vain.
You get confused, I get higher.

Right here, right now.
Just a say i come up with,
"my heart is smiling to the world"

caught in his own moment,
SleeplessPanda~

A truth to be told

2008-10-23T22:38:00.005+08:00

It came, unnoticed. Ambushed me when i was defenseless.
I did not realize it until, I felt it myself.
Last time, it hurt me pretty deep. Leaving unforgettable memories.

And now, it's back. It's here.
I can feel it, just as i look at myself in the mirror.
It's the same old feeling. I can remember it clearly.

Gradually inflicting a very annoying pain, right at me.
It has always been too invisible to resist, i could not sense it.
So now, I could not help it. It's already here.

But I'm not going to surrender completely, I'm fighting it.
With my remaining strength, slowly but surely.
I hope, it will go away, soon enough.

Before i.....

.....run out of my tissue paper.

by an influenzal SleeplezzPanda~

*jegar*

Holla Pasta!

2008-10-22T22:52:00.017+08:00

Hey guys, studying was damn boring...but eating is never! HAHAHA o yeah! Here are some photos i snapped in One Utama when we had preliminary dinner ;p. We din eat that much since we had plans to eat at SS2 Murni.

Pasta Zanmai

Ryokucha - Japanese Green Tea

Green Tea Cappuccino (its the essence of green tea, said Sipit)

Smoked Salmon Pizza

Chicken Katsu No Meat Sauce

Milky Green Tea (its milky lolz)

Strawberry Parfait (the strawberry sauce is delicious)

and 4 of us (Ose-John-Winson-Sipit)

Even tho am not a big pasta fan, I will try some other pasta dishes for my next visit. Adios amigos~

Your beloved,

SleeplessPanda~

Say Hi to Dim Sum!

2008-10-21T21:27:00.024+08:00

Finally! after wrapping up a 2363-word paper, my life is back lmao. Altho i'm still left with two exams to kill on the 29th and the 4th, my head felt slightly lighter. Ok, now is the time for a dim sum story hahaha. Any of you a dim sum freak? if you are, then you may like some of these pics...

The Imperial China restaurant~

The dim sum trolley xD

Are these pictures appealing enough? ;D

Commonly, there are siew mai, shrimp hakao, char siew bao, and some other dim sum varieties which names i dont know lol. Don't worry guys, ignore the names and point your finger at the one you want, but don't use the middle finger, thats gona look odd and rude ;p.

Ching/Oliph/Sandy

Ching, John, Sandy, Oliph

Sadly, there were only 4 of us, some other can't bother to wake up. But thats okay, coz these dim sums taste great. FYI, most of these dishes are not halal. Be careful k. Anyhow, i guess that's it. Am gona put up more photos at my next post. Check em out later.

exams are just around the corner, so study hard people,
SleeplessPanda~

A visit to Noodle Station

2008-10-18T22:41:00.013+08:00

Noodle, noodle, and noodle! Ehem, this is just one of those moments. Noodley moments i wud say xD. Plus, a bit of study time after our silent dinner (everyone was pretty hungry =D). So, me and 7 other hungry homo sapiens decided to dine at the Noodle Station which is located on SS15 area, Subang Jaya. It's my first visit to the place and i got to know about it from Oliph's blog. Without further ado, here are the pictures...

A two-storey noodle station resto

Wantan Noodle with Fried Chicken Dumpling

Spicy Trio Wantan Noodle Soup

Wantan Noodle with Filament Stick and Fried Dumpling

Mixed Step Mango (Vanilla, Orange, Banana, Blueberry, & Milk Blended)

I Miss You Lemonade (Peach & Passion Fruit)

Iced Strawberry Kiwi Tea

After a peaceful dinner, we stayed there for sometime. Lepaking and chitchatting. Overall, it's a nice resto with good service. A neat place. Food was great and reasonably priced. Btw, its halal. Also, you can surf up the net with the provided WiFi. I would recommend this restaurant to everyone. Bring your friends or family or both =D, check out the food, and have a pleasant time together. I obviously will be coming back to test the rest of the menu when i'm free later. So yeah, there goes noodle station. Thanks for reading :)

Cu at my next post,
SleeplessPanda~

BANZAI BONANZA!!!

2008-10-15T22:07:00.009+08:00

It seems that for every so often, the entrance of the commonly-not-so-crowded Sushi King resto will turn into a hellhole lol. I can see the long queue outside filled with hungry faces. The Sushi Eaters. Haha eleven of us were quite lucky that we did not have to wait for long to get seated, we got separated tho =( and this is caused by a particular annoying host. So, 6 of us are at one corner and the remaining 5 at another corner.

Bonanza! is what they call it, the so-called treat by Sushi King, by charging only RM 2,00 for each color plate, that passes around the sushi bar. The Sushi-go-round. Btw, this treat does charge the promoted ones on a normal price. Never mind, just eat the RM 2,00 plates all the way!!!

9 of us, half of tinna, and a missing lung2 lol

More than 40 plates, i'm the sushi king! =D

and lastly, the senoritas~

Well in spite of the emptied plates in the pics, i can honestly comment that, Sushi King's taste is that of an average level. Ok ok like that, hahaha, but still, not bad. It is actually my first time trying this bonanza treat. If im not mistaken, it is only on for 3 days. I went to the first and the last. All in all, stomachs were full and we had fun =D

yours truly,
SleeplessPanda~

Looking ahead

2008-10-14T23:34:00.007+08:00

Exactly in 9 days from now which is the 23rd, we, monashians will officially start battling our final papers. That time will come very soon fellas! It's a time when your mental and physic will be tested. You all must know the exam powerful aura right. Everyone can feel it. Well at least, they are the ones who care for their finals. I've been watching a lot of students gathering at the foyer lately, with books and papers, its a sign that the real battle has already started before the scheduled exams commence. Adequate preparation is the key guys. lmao. I sound like a smart-ass here.

At the battlefield, all the hardwork you've been doing, all the blood you've spilled, and all the heads you've chopped off (0.o, scary shit, scratch this one), will pay off. If you come unprepared, that's doomsday for you. A death sentence. Except for, a few f-in brainy out there somewhere, picking up their noses, bumming around. These people can answer deadly questions at the speed of light. Ok i exaggerated again there. lol. So, my point was, perseverance will reward you with good results. Not necessarily but its a good faith there. For some, faith is what keeps them going =D.

Hey, I'm no one to act smart here, but, as one of the students myself, i'm just saying that sufficient preparation will definitely help you. I know many of us are intelligent people, yet sometimes, when your preparation is not enough, you may just regret later, on the time you've sacrificed to do something less important than studying. Haha, enough of my preachy message right, so yeah, all the best fellas! Best of luck with studying and the upcoming finals! =D

Anyhow, for y'all music lovers, i would like to recommend some of the promoted songs for the last two months (September & October). The ones i like, they are :

Neyo - Single (in the album Year of the Gentleman)
Fall Out Boy - I don't care (dunno what album, probably released soon)
Neyo - Miss Independent (from September promo album)
Christina Aguilera - Keeps getting better
Rihanna - Rehab (You may have it already)

There's a saying that "music can heal your soul". Maybe these songs can relieve some of your tight nerves xD. Check em out if you're interested. Hope you like em :)

Ciao, sleeplesspanda

Untitled

2008-10-13T02:52:00.006+08:00

Hey people. Me and some friends have been going to starbucks for 2 days now. Of course, with the seemingly holy intention to study and work on our assignments. BUT, as i expected, it did not go as planned. Procrastination was too inevitable. In dota terms, you've reached the unstoppable status xD. We menyimpang a lot. Man, are we the hopeless generation of youth? lol. Hope not.

Many of us are certainly aware of this issue yet some of us really can't bother but keep on embracing our lazy bones. Am i right? Well, i'm not a hypocrite, i admit i'm one of those lazy bums. with heavy asses xD.

I know exams are getting closer and closer each moment. Its been bugging me like Ne-yo's song. Closer...closer...swt. But slacking is already like my best friend. I've been calling myself a part-time student and a full time skipper for quite a time now. Sounds stupid, i know, but that's the truth. Can't help dude. Gak ketolongan.

Ok. At least, i managed to finish my take home assignment today. A thousand word limit. Not so much, but yea, it takes some time for me to spin my dead brain a couple of times. So, the stupid essay is done, will submit it at the 1 pm lecture. Hopefully the piece will make some sense.

Tonight i've fallen and i can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night i miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight
(Tonight/FM Static)

i cant help but wonder how long will i last? im certainly not a strong one.
i try to be optimistic. it didnt work at times. my hearts not made of stone.
its alive and beating. and that on-going beat, its slowly dying.
i know im weak but its me. and at this very moment,
im living my life that is full of unanswered questions.

Alright, Im gradually losing my eyes at this point. A sleepless panda is not that strong. See you at my next post.

a vision of a skylover

2008-10-12T17:13:00.004+08:00

I watched a great storm pass by my balcony today. It looked as if the sky had been mad on us.
I could hear the wind screaming from the distance. But i could not understand it.
It was like a tiny whirlwind somehow, yet not destructive.

Maybe it was saying something. A holy message? or was mother nature crying?
Looks to me, it cried a lot. Since my balcony was damn watery lol.
Guys, despite taking into account the common knowledge about storm as a natural phenomenon,
Would you think that when storm comes, it means that the GODs are angry? Maybe.

One thing i always like about the sky. It may be cloudy when the weather looks bad.
But eventually when it stops, it will remain as a clear blue carpet, a thoroughly vast one.
Its like the big blue ocean hanging over our world. Had the company of the sun at times.

A distinctive blue sky. That looks somewhat smiling.
The limitless and wonderful, infinity atmosphere.
Sometimes when i look up, its like asking me to fly away with it.
I just havent got the wings. Not yet, probably.

SleeplessPanda~

And now i still havent done my stupid essay. z.

fffFRIDAYyyy

2008-10-10T22:01:00.008+08:00

Hey bloggers, time sure flies when we're preoccupied with things, its 10 pm here. Theres nothing much to tell today. And, i asked friends around on how to make this blog looks somewhat stylish. So I got directed to this website >> www.blogskins.com.

This website has so many layouts for blog. As i browsed thru and checked out some layouts i found interesting, in the end it led me to remain using one of the basic templates. All those layouts seem colorful and nice but i think most of them condense the entries very narrowly. Again, i dont find it convenient to read blog or let people see my blog, with so many words in such a small space. Its damaging your eyes lol. So, yeah. Im sticking with the plain, basic skin, that blogspot provides.

Anyway, today is just like one of those days. I have the same old routine. I woke up rather late in the afternoon, had lunch like usual, came back, sat on my chair, and dated my notebook until the evening comes.

However, i realize one thing today, i think ive said too many f words. xD. my bad. Yet i also admit myself that that common particular word is one of a kind, dont you think? i guess most of you people know that this very word has multi-functions. It can be a subject, an object, a pronoun, etc in a sentence. Come to think of it. Haha i think the f word deserves some kind of award for its achievement as the most flexible word in the world. lmao.

more pieces of mind for the day:

The earth right now is in an extremely saddening state.
Many of us are in pursuit of what may be called perfection.

In whatever we do, we tend to make things perfect.
By changing things, we hope to look good, better, best, and eventually, to be perfect.
Good has considered to be not enough. There should always be a more.
As we carry on this path of perfectionism, we tend to lose our real identity.
We forget what we really are. People change. Everyone is chasing after the same thing.
Yes, we are often blinded by the perception that the world offers.
With the perfect look thus the perfect image. With abundance of money thus your world is complete.
We're losing our selves to the construction that the world has made.
We may need money, yet, its not everything we really need, where did happiness run to?
Cash may buy out people but it cannot buy out true happiness. Many have lost it. Their lives.
What a sad little earth.

ps: i miss her.

seeya,
sleeplesspanda~

a newbie on the block

2008-10-10T02:53:00.003+08:00

Greetings, so i've finally decided to abandon my short-lived friendster blog and start totally fresh with blogspot. And since im new in blogspot, im still confused with all the settings. Layout and shit. but, lets ignore that for now.

Its already 3 am now. Am accompanied by a pile of academic papers, a few shooters glass (empty), and other stuffs. I recall a certain episode of "how i met your mother" series that tells "nothing good happens after two". Do you think thats true? i think it depends. Very different people would be doing very different things at this moment. Anything, you name it, snoring, taking a dump in the can, getting wasted, laughing hard with friends, eating deliveries or whatever. Well right now with myself listening to the music playing half-full volume on should not seem like a bad thing :D

Ok, what else am i thinking of? EXAMS!!! this five letter word should give enuf pressure for every student out there, suffering just like me. So, as im currently doing a communication degree in Monash University, the sick university, im totally feeling all the exam tensions, with of course the exam schedule around the corner. But, lucky enuf, for this semester, i will only have to do 2 papers, which i think is a rare chance for me to have coz most of my current subjects assessments largely involve writing essays and other tasks instead of exam. I guess im pretty lucky since ive also have noticed that some of my friends are having their exams with dead-end, inhuman schedules. Godspeed fellas ><. Fiuh, life is so cruel at this point. While Monash is still not satisfied giving endless assignments to us, they dont realize that many people die in the battlefield there, the exam hall XD. Btw, ive always been thinking to assemble a number of voluntaries to blow up Monash, when Monash is gone, we'll be set free, lol, whos with me?

I think thats all for now. Am gona ask around about this blog setting. Mine looks too dead. It needs some nice colors and pictures here and there :D

ciaoz,
sleeplesspanda